Archive | December, 2010

Great Expectations

31 Dec

I’m starting the resolution early, getting on with these posts – even if they may be short and to the point.

Wishing you a very happy 2011 filled with everything you wish it, and make it, to be.

I know a lot has changed for me this past year; I left education and encountered 50 hour working weeks. I found love, or pefrhaps with hindsight, ‘lust’… and lost it in its ever-moving cycle and I discovered that friendships will always change with time, but that will never matter unless you let it. At the end of the day, you will always be that same person you were when you were eight and attempted to reach the sky from the swingset. I’m leaving 2010 slightly sad that time has moved so fast and I never managed to accomplish everything in this year that I had planned. But, I’m also leaving 2010 hopeful and thankful. 2011 has a lot to live up to.

The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live.

Elbert Hubbard



30 Dec

I’m not one for sticking with New Years resolutions. They typically last for about a week and then BAM!, I’m back to eating unhealthily, or moaning about things that don’t matter. So this year, I can be observed failing at a resolution! This year I’m going to write on here daily or at least every week, updating everyone and no-one (and myself) on my life and its changes.

This year is going to be the most different of my life so far and so hopefully this will help me to embrace it. I’m going to make this WordPress account a little more me, a little less dramatic and eloquent. Expect honesty and mistakes and a little bit of rambling. In the end all I guess I need to say is, Welcome to my World.

Viva La Vida

29 Dec

If a tree falls in a forest and no-one hears it, does it make a sound?

Wishing all you invisible readers Happy Holidays. Time has moved on unbelievably fast and I’m unsure whether this is due to my age or just the pure fact that the days have now decided to shorten in some bizarre new orbit of the earth. The consequence is still the same, I’ve turned into my grandparents; ‘Doesn’t time fly’.

I realise that I’m beginning to sound a little like Chris Martin, the singer in the band Coldplay. The lead singer of one of Britain’s most well known and successful bands and exports is forever stating that his music isn’t liked/appreciated in such a manner that it, having just noted their obvious success, looks attention seeking to the extent where he really does deserve a good slap. I’m not complaining at the fact that I have few readers here, just merely noting the fact that I am aware and so addressing no-one. After all, among the tourist destinations and the seven wonders of the internet, this blog features very little of interest, besides the life and mind of another, and that is not what the majority of people are seeking. I don’t mind so much, although contrary to the ‘diary’ ethos, I believe nothing is really ever written not to be read but this is my release at present, and so even if this sentence isn’t read or digested or cared about, it does help me to get it out there. Sometimes I just need to SHOUT to the world, even if the world isn’t listening.

At present I’m struggling to make the decision whether to go volunteering/travelling for a short period of time abroad in the spring. Its not just a financial issue but a safety and one of necessity. I’m moving away and to a new life after the summer as it stands, do I need to complicate that adventure with another one? The choice seems simple on paper, I dream of seeing the world and a little bit of a reality check, to see the circumstances of life in a different country, can never be a bad thing. However something’s pulling me back from this. I’m looking at leaving Europe and going to Asia or South America. If there is anyone out there reading this, some advice would be appreciated on this matter.

I feel a little more figured about my life at present, a little more in control than I was. My short downtime allowed me to re-assess what it was that I wanted and what it also was that mattered to me in life. Happiness in all things for everyone concerned. If it’s not making you happy then it just isn’t worth it. Life is too short to waste time worrying, sitting around and spending time wishing things were another way, being unhappy and sacrificing moments that could’ve been memorable. A friend said to me a few days ago about my current job ‘it is what you make it’, and that stuck with me. The truth resonates. It is near impossible not to worry about the future, but taking a step back to consider whether the worrying will achieve anything is worth the time. I need to learn and adapt to go along with the events, taking them in and dealing with them as and when they unfold – rather than predicting several outcomes to events that may never happen. Worrying takes time away from doing the important things.

So, with that in mind I feel as if I can begin to answer the question that started this brief entry. Of course, if a tree falls in a forest it makes a sound. Just because there is no-one around to listen, it doesn’t mean it didn’t happen. Just because no-one is reading this doesn’t mean it hasn’t been written. It isn’t always about the effect something has on others. Sometimes there is no effect. There doesn’t need to be.

Every life can’t always be extraordinary, but it’s what you personally do with your gift of life which defines who you really are. Even the most ordinary of circumstances and lives can produce something worth mentioning, whether it is mentioned, or not, after all.